Slacker

I know I've been slacking a little when it comes to posting but we haven't really had a lot going on. I didn't post about our weekend because we did absolutely nothing but lounge in the pool at my mother in laws ALL weekend. :) I'm trying to soak up what little bit of time I have left with one child! In about 10 weeks or so, it's all going to change. I haven't even gotten out my camera in the past week to 2 weeks because it's been so low key. I did snap a picture of Tuff lounging in his chair yesterday watching cartoons.

This picture pretty much sums up just how low key we have been. Diaper'd bottom, tshirt, paci, blankie, laid back and complete with a little cartoon-age. :)

I wasn't feeling my best yesterday so I took the day off and spent it lounging with my baby boy. We should have both been well rested this morning when we got up. Let's just say Tuff was well rested. I know I've mentioned in previous posts that I don't sleep good but I have better nights. Now that I'm about to hit my 30 week mark, I think I'm about to start experiencing more of my worse nights. Boo. The good thing is we only have 10 weeks to go. And hoping for 8 or 9. Haha.

I have had a few things on my mind lately and the closer we get to seeing Gunner's sweet face, the more I am starting to worry. For those of you who don't know, my labor and delivery with Tuff wasn't the easiest. Tuff was "face up" which made for a very difficult and long delivery. Approximately 4 hours of pushing and the epidural wearing off twice in between those 4 hours. On my last push they already had the OR booked for a possible c-section. My doctor had to use the suction cup on his sweet little head and she told me "this is the last push, if he doesn't come out, we'll have to do a c-section!" Luckily with my determination to push his little butt out of there and the help of that suction cup, Lucas Tuff came right out into the world. I have never been SO relieved in my entire life! I thought it was finally over.... but I was wrong. We got to come home on a Thursday morning and a couple days later I was more swollen than I was when I left the hospital to come home. I was also having really bad headaches. My sister in law decided to check by blood pressure and it was 190/110. We immediately called my Dr.'s office and they told me to come right in. Once I got there, I was re-hospitalized and diagnosed with postpartum preeclampsia. For any of you who don't know what this is, you can read up a little on it here. A couple hours after being there I was given a full explanation of this diagnosis and what I would have to do to get rid of it. Originally, I was supposed to be given some meds for 24 hours which would make my BP go down and after a little while of monitoring without the meds, I would get to go home. Well 24 hours turned into 3 days because my BP just wasn't wanting to go down. On the 4th day of being back in the hospital, I finally got to go back home to be with my baby boy! I've always said my Labor was hard but the postpartum preeclampsia was harder. Harder because I had a brand new baby at home that I was missing out on. He was there alot while I was re-hospitalized, but it just wasnt the same as being home with him........

Here's where my concerns come in with baby Gunner.... Since I had the postpartum preeclampsia with my first pregnancy my risks are high with this pregnancy. Also, since my BP never really regulated after having Tuff, I had to be on BP meds up until this pregnancy which puts me at an even HIGHER risk. I'm afraid of this disease caused by pregnancy only! I know my chances of not getting it, aren't great but I'm really praying GOD will let me slide this time! And if I do get it, I'm praying it comes BEFORE Gunner arrives so we can get him here safely and I can be at home with my 2 babies after the delivery.

My other concern is him being "face up" like Tuff was. I've been searching alot about this online and it seems alot of women who have one face up, have them all face up. I asked the doctor about the possibility last Friday and she said it just depended. She said alot of babies start out face up but they can turn them by the time they actually come out. Unfortunitely, they tried the whole 4 hours I was pushing with Tuff and he still came out face up. In alot of other cases, I have heard that they could rotate the baby in time. She also said some women's pelvic bones are positioned differently causing the baby to be face up because that's the only way the baby can lie in there. When she said that, I knew I was doomed. Years ago during my first annual pap smear, the doctor told me mine was positioned different than usually. (To be exact, she said "up and to the left" not sure why I've always remembered that, but I have) Soooo..... I'm most concerned about this. Only because I've heard horror stories about babies being stuck in the canal for so long and having to be pushed back up to get them out via c-section and then the babies not surviving or having issues. Every since I've heard this, I've been terrified. So what now you ask? I'm not sure. Jordan and I have talked about this alot and we have plans to talk everything through with my doctor next Friday. We are both wondering if scheduling a c-section might be best for baby Gunner. C-section is definitely not what I want. But, what I do want is what's best for baby Gunner and for me. So, if you all don't mind, please say a prayer for us as we try to decide what's best for baby Gunner. We'd really appreciate it!

As for now, baby Gunner is restling around in there wanting some lunch. So I'm headed to meet Aunt April for lunch!!!

Hope you're all having a wonderful Thursday!!!!