Let's go back almost a month... Every year on Halloween we take the kids trick or treating and then stop by the Holiday House (where my Nana lived) so my Nana could see the kids and give them the treats she had prepared for them. This year my mom and I were talking about going before trick or treating but after trying to come up with a decision, we ended up deciding on going after. Trick or treating was fun but got a little overwhelming towards the end since Tuff wanted to be held and daddy was on a tight schedule because of work. So after we got to the car, we loaded up and headed to my MIL's. YES... completely forgetting about my Nana. Just a few miles from home my cell rang and there displayed on my screen said "NANA calling." I felt horrible. She laughed it off and said it was fine but I still felt bad. THAT was the last time I talked to her before the accident. I also feel like I could have made a little more time for her. Called her more. Visited more. Took the babies to see her more. Invited her over more. And now all I'm left with is "should have's" and "could have's." This really got me thinking about some other family situations we have been faced with lately. Since my Nana's passing, I've wanted to work on mending everything that needs to be mended. I want to try and start over-looking the small things, try to accept the way people are and just LOVE my family & friends regardless of their flaws. God works in mysterious ways. I truly believe that. I also believe he used this situation to open our eyes to REALITY. Reality is that anything can happen at any given moment. Someone we love can be taken away from us in the blink of an eye. And like I said earlier, we are then left with the could have's and should have's. HE loves us regardless of our flaws and HE expects the same from us.
John 13:34 "A new commandment I give you, that you love one another: just as I have loved you, you are to love one another."
I have a few other reasons for having a heavy heart this morning that I'd like to share with everyone. Shortly after my Nana's memorial, my mom got some news that her dad (my papa) hasn't been feeling well. He has been having severe headaches. Severe enough that it's been making him incapable of doing anything. He went to the DR the beginning of the week and had an MRI scheduled for today. Yesterday morning we got news that he was in so much pain that he had to go to the ER. They have him on pain medicine AND muscle relaxers and none of it seems to be helping. Once in the ER, they told him there was nothing they could do for him until his scheduled MRI today and they sent him home. I'm not sure if we'll get the results today or not but we could use some prayers. Please pray it's just something minor that can be fixed. Also, please pray for my mom. She could really use the prayers. I feel like she is always trying to be Super Daughter, Super Mom, Super Sister, Super Daughter in law, etc. I am proud to have such a caring mother. We can always count on her to be right by anyone in our families side in their time of need. BUT, I know how exhausting that must be for her. And I feel like it's starting to take a toll on her, emotionally. And that tends to make me worry about her. Also remember that her whole family is 9 hours away from us. Which means if anything were to happen, she has to travel that far just to be able to be by their side.
And my heart is heaviest this morning because of a little boy in my home town who just got diagnosed with cancer yesterday afternoon. From my understanding, he had been having headaches and they took him to get it checked out the beginning of this week. They found a brain tumor and once they drained it and sent it for tests, they found out it was cancer. The cancer has also spread to his spine and is in his spinal cord. BLESS this sweet little boy. Can you imagine the hurt and pain his parents must be feeling? I hate to see my children sick with a cold... I can't imagine what it would be like to see them sick with cancer. Where I'm from it's SMALL. I'm not sure of the population but it isn't much. Since I've moved here when I was younger, it was always something people complained about, including myself from time to time. Everybody knows everybody and everybody knows everything. That kind of thing. But I can tell you one thing, when something like this happens, everyone comes together. And that's what I love most about our small town. Last night at 9 p.m. they held a prayer vigal for this sweet little boy at the town square. I couldn't make it since I had 2 babies that needed to be in bed and because it was so cold but from what I've heard, the turn out was HUGE. That my friends, is powerful. When it really comes down to it, that is what a small town is all about. Everyone coming together in time of need. Since I couldn't be there, I said my own prayer at 9 p.m. while holding both my sleeping baby boys tight in bed. I know I've asked you all for LOTS of prayers the past few weeks but please remember this little boy and his family in their time of need. They NEED the prayer's. He needs the Lord's healing hands. Please spread the word. Tell your friends, family and even add to your churches prayer lists if you can. His name is Branden Schwartz and he is only 10 years old. I know him and his family would be so appreciative.
After all of the above, I've been feeling extra Thankful & Blessed lately. I'm thankful for a happy, healthy marriage to a wonderful husband & daddy. I'm thankful for 2 beautiful baby boys who are also happy & healthy. I'm thankful for my family & my husband's family. I'm thankful for our jobs that provide us a home, food on the table and clothes on our backs. I'm just thankful. So even though my heart may be a little heavy this year for Thanksgiving, it will be extra FULL of thankfulness too.
Happy Friday, Friends.
No comments:
Post a Comment